Gnostic state

Lost and all but forgotten come and walk the razors edge. Bloody cough and still no stopping my mortality is watching the envelope bend. Cant decide if fake or righteous where do i begin? Tired of waiting for tomorrow i dont sleep so my days never end. Here i am the shudra bought and sold on a whim. Pretty people smiling faces bite my lip and bare the brunt follow guidelines no one asked me but i know i could not stop.... you have left me know to wallow swallow these words dont let the jump these lips. Beaten down and covered in garbage while the treacherous have their way. Loveless fodder daughter born to undeserving father tragedy followed within. If my god was let loose upon them would they bow like me, if they saw in through the darkness would the peer in self reflection and think they are unclean? Perhaps there is no reward and i would still not change, carnal beast tied in earthly chains, i am of the air watch me float on this limitless plain. Now too many are the nights where I pray, calling out into the ether asking for its name. I have been there once and like a mother its nourishment is unseen. Form is nothingness and from nothingness this form was born. Ringing in my ears now, can you hear it calling like the thunder from a storm deafening this mediocrity urging me to see it till the end. Granted visions i see the forest of Nemi where i was left to be king, golden bough in hand the land leads me to hades will it let me in? Trade now this fragile form for something substantial make me more than flesh bound to bone. Separate this mind from the body and leave it to rot, give me the bitter root of reason to dull these senseless sense to see truly what is right in front of my eyes. Cast this veil aside rip asunder my matriculation free me and let me touch the divine.